Decided to Cancel Surgery

I've decided to cancel Ben's surgery and will call to do so first thing tomorrow. I just have too many reservations. I hate putting Ben in the hospital overnight during cold/flu season. I worry he is going to catch some nasty hospital bug and with his trach, that is easy to do. Plus, this isn't really something that has to be done now... it can wait until summer when he is out of school and not as many things are going around. This is also about the one year mark from Ben's leg break and I just want him to have an enjoyable holiday season without feeling miserable.